Saturday, what a day.

I had to rest up yesturday as Saturday took a lot out of me. I know I always feel bad on a Sunday, when I garage sale on a Saturday. It was great though. Its always worth it.

I got this Royal Doulton doona cover set for $5.00. It’s exactly what I’ve been looking for but I couldn’t afford.

Then I saw an  extension cord. I needed one and they are not cheap. Anyway I got 7 ‘new’ ones for $2.

I’m so pleased. Garage saleing really is the highlight of my week.

Oh ,I know mum will read this so I’m painting your favourite sweets for you. You cant eat them, but you can look at them. They are nearly finished.

Altered book.

I need to get started on my Christmas cards. I’m seriously searching for 6 photos that say ‘Christmas’ to me. Then I’ll get painting. Once thats done, I’ll post them on REDBUBBLE & IMAGEKIND for sale. Then I’ll buy a set for myself.

That way they really are professional cards. Of course I want other people to buy them to. Hint,hint.

I was looking a some blogs this morning, and one really inspired me to do some more altered art. These photos are from an altered book I still havent finished. I’ll keep on with it now.

Well, it’s Saturday today. That means ‘Garage Sale Day’. I’ve only got a few dollars, so we’ll have to see what bargains I can get.

The day after!

This is a photo of some of the pictures I’ve done for mum over the years. These are an attempt at coloured pencil. Derwent Artist Pencils. I should keep practicing with them.

By the time I got home yesturday I was so exhausted. I haven’t even finished unpacking yet. It takes just over an hour to drive from mum’s to my place.

Pye, my cat, is just sooo predictable. She spent most of the night sleeping on my hip. So I’m tired and rather sore this morning.

    This is last years Christmas present to mum. Acrylic on canvas. I’ll do more like this. I’m happy with it.Mum loves it. But then she loves everything I do. This one is my brothers Christmas present last year. I let him pick which one he wanted. Its not a very good photo. It was a real chalenge for me to get the horses proportions right.

I really miss painting when I go to mum’s. But I keep a little sketch book in my handbag.

I ache all over. Mum and I cleaned up in her back yard and now It’s caught up with me. Definately pain killer time. Injection day today to.

Going home.

Looks like it’s going to be a rainy old day today. Thats ok, the garden needs it badly. I haven’t been out to do anything in the veggie patch for ages. I had a bad reaction to some new tablets. It’s taken a while to feel better. I’d like to paint etc,on weekdays. Then do gardening on weekends.

Things dont always work out the way we want them to though. I have to be happy that I’m doing ’something’. Anything is better than laying around in bed.

Well,I’m going home today. I haven’t done any painting since Thursday. Three whole days.I’m working on a really big canvas for my kitchen. I’ll post a photo when I’m done. Its not often I paint for me.

I took photos of the paintings I did for mum yesturday. They are on nearly all her walls.Tomorrow I’ll sit and crop, and resize them.They have to be 4 different sizes for different websites. Then I have to start posting them.

I’ve been wondering if I should try to sell them on Etsy. I’m not sure yet. I don’t know if the paintings will sell.Any advice from people would definately be welcome.

I have to say sorry about my rant yesturday. I just hate for people to hurt.

Anyway,I might post again later, when I get home, with some photos. I really miss my cat,Pye.  She will ignore me until bedtime tonight. Then she’ll sleep on top of me so I cant go anywhere. Yes, she has emotional problems.

 

Shit happens!

Shit happens!  Sorry, but sometimes it just does and you have to work your way around it.  Then just get on with your life.  If you do the best you can, then at least you are trying.

I know we all want to give up sometimes. Fine, go to bed!Go out!  Go get councelling!  DON’T say there’s no hope. Focus on a good thought. The sky is pretty, the flowers smell nice, thank God for tomorrow, mum, my kids, my cat, my pills. Whatever.

You must make/force yourself to find something to hold onto.  I know what its like to lay in bed all day and all night NEEDING it to go away, desperate to feel better.  If the pain or nausea eases for a second, it’s the most wonderful feeling in the world.

There’s a difference between suicidal thoughts brought on by clinical depression and by things being to much or to stressful.  Both feel terrible and if things get better you can be happy again.  You dont realy want to die, you are DESPERATE.  With a chemical imbalance, it can take you by surprise.  For no reason you sit and scream.  You can’t stop crying.  You can’t do anything, see anyone.  People make you sick, even your family.

Even while everything in your life is wonderful, it happens.  I thank God for the drugs I’m on because I feel human now.

You have to work out why you feel so bad and get the right sort of treatment.  Be it drugs, counselling, change of relationship even change of job. 

I’m sorry for ranting. I hardly ever do. Probably wont again. It’s just that there are so many people out there hurting. But they dont know how to help themselves.

Not home.

Well,I’m at mum’s today.She lives near the city.SHOPS,SHOPS and more SHOPS!  I love all the sale signs.I also love the library.Its so big.We even have lunch there.I love living in the country but do miss all the shops etc.We even go to Ikea and Harbourtown.

 

The only problem is that it takes me about a week to recover from the car fumes etc.When I get home I’ll sleep for days.On Tuesday I go to my Dr for a vitamin B shot.That always helps.

I have vitamin B every 2 weeks and intravenous vitamin C every 4 weeks.I cant take the tablets.This way they bypass the stomach.Its all so yucky but it helps me feel almost human.I also need antyinflamitory tablets and antidepressants.Otherwise I cant walk.I have muscle spasms etc.

So I make the most of these little trips to mum’s.

Pictures & Books

This is called Beach.I like this one for its simplicity.I can imagine being there.

The reference photo came from someone over at Wetcanvas.A lot of my reference photos come from there.As my photography gets better I’ll use my own photos.

This was going to be a little practice picture.But I love the way it turned out.I called it Dunes and sold the origional for $35 unframed.

Thanks to William Gunther for photo ref,from Wetcanvas again.

It’ Friday today.I’ve got some books on Lay-by that i’ll pick up today.I’ve been reading Ted Dekker.He writes some great Christian Horror/Thrillers.

I just finished Skin last night.Great twist at the end.I want to find more writers like him.I love that kind of story.I collect Stephen king and Dean Koonts.

I painted this in early May and sold it for $30.I really like it,the light and shaddow.Its acrylic on watercolour paper.

Cats,cats & more cats.

I have always liked drawing cats.This first drawing was done in 2005.It’s called Happy Chap.This is well before I ever used paint.

                 

 

 

 

This one is called Wash Time.Again done in 05. 

                                                                                          This painting is called White Cat.I did thisi n 2008.

This is called Looking Out.Also 2008.

If you have cats you’ll know why I love drawing and painting them.I want to capture every little expression and character trait.They are incredible creatures.

Three more paintings.

This is one of my favorite paintings.I didn’t like it at first.I thought it was to dark and I couldn’t get the reflections right.But now I just love it.

This was my first ever fish.The  scales have a sheen to them.I stood back to look at it and I’d got it right.I was so surprised.I’m sure some pictures paint themselves. This was one of my first paintings .It’s only a small canvas .My second try at a window.I’ve decided I’m not very good at flowers.I can draw them,but not paint them.

One day I’ll have time to learn and practice flowers.But at the moment I’m trying all different things,to see what I can do.

Cats & boats

This is called ‘Sleepy’. I got a little carried away painting cats.I had to stop myself and move on to something else.

But this guy is one of my favourites.I really like the light and shadow.I have him,like my other paintings,for sale on RED BUBBLE.You can then buy them as cards,prints,on canvas,even framed.

You know I love that site and IMAGEKIND because they do it all for me.Nothing for me to do.’Wow’.But I still want to sell the originals.That means portfolio,business cards,framing etc.I cant always cope with all that.

Thats why  I dont do commissions.Theres to much pressure.

Sometimes I have to leave a picture like this one, called ‘Tranquility’, and come back months later to finish it.I took ages with this and nearly gave up on it.I’m glad I perservered because I’ve got it hanging in a light,wood frame and it’s beautiful.